I am sick. I think I have the flu. The flu is stupid. Being sick is stupid. I’ve spent the past two days in bed, being totally unproductive. Being unproductive is stupid, too. I’m in a total “puke and rally” mindset at this point because I have a weekly goal… a deadline, to “put myself out there” whether it be by video or blog post on Wednesdays. I told myself today that it’d be ok to skip this week because I’m sick, but if I do that I know I’ll give way to the excuses next week and the week after.
So, I’m powering through.
Last week I shared a small part of a video I was attempting to upload to YouTube. Before I get into that, can we talk for a second about uploading videos to You Tube? I mean, what in the actual fuck is up with it taking forever? I started out with a 15:45 minute video, shortened it to 10 minutes and eventually got it uploaded at 9 something. Sweet shit. I adjusted my settings so that my account can have 15 minute or longer videos, but something is still not right. Is it because I do it all from my phone? Should I be using an actual camera? If anyone has any tips for my newbie ass, I’d appreciate it.
If you didn’t see the full video, you can get it to here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRszo-sL-xU
The first part of the video, which I had to take out, was about my first experiences with tarot cards. I had my cards read twice and I had no idea what to expect, what was going on, or what to do with the information I received. I went into the readings thinking that I’d get some clear instructions about what I was supposed to do with my life. At the moment I was lost. I had no sense of self and no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I thought the tarot reader would give me the answers. She didn’t. Despite my ignorance at the time, one thing I knew for sure was that I was uncomfortable and a skeptic and the lady reading my cards knew it too. I was disappointed in my readings (I went two years in a row) and never gave tarot a second thought after that.
Tarot found me though. I Knew it was part of the course I was signing up for, but I looked at it as something fun to learn about and then I’d move on to the other parts of the program that I was really interested in (crystal healing and chakras). When I started the tarot portion I was overwhelmed at the amount of detail and information each card contained. As I worked my way through the cards I quickly realized the therapeutic side to tarot reading. I knew I was being given an amazing tool; a gift that I could use to really help people. All I ever wanted to do was help people, I just didn’t know HOW. I feel I’ve found my medium to make that happen.
If you take the time to watch the video you’ll see that I was accused of Satan worship because of my tarot card reading. As offensive as that is, it made me realize how little people know about tarot. My question for everyone is this: What do want to know about tarot? What are your experiences with tarot, if any? What scares you about it? What makes you interested? I really truly want to know. There’s no judgement from me. I am curious about it because it’s something I want to use to help people, but I feel I need to do some work educating before I’ll be able to do that.
If you feel comfortable, please feel free to leave your feedback in the comments. You can message me on Facebook, email me (firstname.lastname@example.org)… whatever you like.
With that, I am going back to bed. Take your vitamins people, this shit is awful.
Sending you all love + light and all things peaceful and wonderful,